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1. List four fandoms you have.
Ohno Satoshi, Ikuta Toma, Arashi, KAT-TUN. IF you must insist, Tanaka Kei

2. Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
Every morning, once my siblings get out of the car, me and Joan immediately stretch out and drop off to sleep.

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
Er, haven't dyed it ever since last December :DDDD

4. List four people that you look up to the most.
My Parents for putting up with me. Do they count as two?
Chee Shan, and Clarice. Yup.

5. How many pets do you own as of now?
My dad has fish, and I keep talking about getting a Sheltie (Shetland Sheepdog)

6. Which do you prefer white or black?
Black clothing minimizes girly 'situations' [I would use 难免发生的状况] But I do enjoy wearing my white clothing.

7. Who is your most played character?
Cause I'm sleepy very often, I walk around and spout rubbish, and generally give people a good idea what I'll be like if I ever get drunk (not that I have.) And everyone says that I talk rubbish all the time. That's not trueee!

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend, or being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances?
Being stuck on an island with a friend for a day. Then next day the boat comes and takes me back to civilization.

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Cynical.
Funny.
Does not have a distinct personality (I can be serious and silly)

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
Flying works.

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
Telling me sister that I won't give her the com :D.

12. Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
Whoever offered me food when I was tired. I think. But that said, it's hard to squeeze a serious 'I Love You' from me.

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head
Fish Leong's song is very poignant. That's not five, but who cares.

14. What's one thing you wish you could do better?
Being a likable, well-adjusted human.

15. Do you like the way you are?
Yes.

16. Choose, summer or winter?
Anything. I don't mind summer rain, but I want to see snow.

17. Rain or snow?
Rain.

18. Water or ice?
I should wean myself off cold stuff.

19. List two odd things about yourself.
1. When I look angry, I'm tired.
2. I keep losing at Wii bowling. Go figure.

20. What are two of your bad habits.
1. Biting my nails.
2. Still being stupidly inconsiderate to other people's feelings.

21. What's 1 of your biggest pet peeve?
How I can't ever have enough sleep

22. Now list 6 people who should do this quiz.
My girlfriend RQ
Shawn
Joan
Sec 2 Band Juniors (Janice, and whoever else)

Does anyone even read my blog?!!

It's not like I don't ever get angry. I try to accept and we go on. If it really gets out of hand, I'll step in. But don't you think we can still try, right?

她也逼近是我们的朋友吗。

爱你哦。

I actually have a whole whole post on my tablet.

Nevermind. Anyway, blogging helps people cool down. Hee.

And then there's the problem of number eight.

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

Wish You Were Here, Pink Floyd

And sometimes, I hum this song when I'm melancholic or nostalgic.

I feel like I'm playing catchup, but there's no choice but to keep going.

tell me outright, so I can do what you want.

Today, broke a measuring cylinder, and split copper sulphate all over myself because of something stupid.

Gave Ee suan a heart attack, ate BBQ Doritos with Susa, played Wii with Hooi Choo (Zee's adik) and Zarifah herself, with snide comments from Mr Lee.

Fell today, and got a lot of unwanted concern from Ms Chia.

"Are you going to die from that (puny) scratch on your knee? Do you want to take geog mock, what if you die?"

Fine, I won't listen to you or care about you anymore.

I'm like a petulant child, but I don't really care.

Today, since I kept complaining about repetitive scenary and the (not) wonderful effect it has on my motivation to run, my dad decided to take us to Jurong Lake to run.

I remember when we were kids, this run was something that happened every saturday. We would park just right outside the Japanese Garden, and do some form of stretching while dad set up the bikes. Sometimes we would play badminton (I first learned it then, and I was horrible), sometimes after cycling, dad would squat that the drains there with his small green net and scoop up tadpoles and fish that were living there. Sometimes, we would get little fish, sometimes all we got were leaves.

At the road, just before the small paths that led around the lake were a platform with a stone sign on it, saying Japanese Gardens. There were little rocks around the sign, and my parents used to warm up by stepping up and down on the platform. As a little kid, you learned too.

The paths were small - about 1.5 metres across. Every small distance of grey concrete, three rows of red bricks would be lined across it. That was the path leading to the right. There was always people fishing for the various creatures that lurk in the depths of Jurong Lake.

Today, the gate to Japanese Garden is open, where tourists, couples and family alike stroll through it. The occasional bus arrives to take people away, and the area that we used to play badminton and learned how to cycle is a carpark of sorts. It can only hold 8 cars, though. The paths at we used to cycle to the right, the path has been replaced by asphalt, about 2 metres plus wide. Dad would squat there and sigh and swear as he tried to fix the greasy bicycle chains for the umpteenth time.

I remember when you cycled down that path, you would have to be careful and avoid the tree roots, parts of nature that won out over humans and their modern ways. The first year, I used to fall and cry. After that, whenever I wasn't careful, those roots would get me.

The roots have been removed, the path flat and smooth.

There was a place where the path was behind a beer garden and a failed amusement park. On Saturdays, nevertheless, the rides would work, or music would be played. I used to imagine dark things that would leap out from the trees, signaling the beginning of an adventure.

The rides still work, those memories are still relived.

On passing that slightly-dimmer path that winds about twice, I reach a open place where the path splits. There's an exercise station of sorts now. It used to just grass. Looking down, I'm disappointed. The concrete path has replaced the footprints of a dog that wandered on the wet concrete a long, long time ago when the path was placed on bare ground.

I used to squat down and wonder what kind of dog or who was it with. When I was four, I used to trace the little dents on the hard concrete. Imprints on concrete is like some parts of life.

The bridge is still there; the little drain that I used to scoop up tadpoles there untouched.

The path to the left used to have just a rickety eh, barrier? It's just a metal cylinder.

The trees that sprouted weird but nice smelling flowers are gone. Pavilions have been set up.

I don't know, but it seems too artificial to me. Perhaps, I even mourn the loss of this wonderful place of my youth. It might have been dirty, without proper facilities. But it was a place where I learned and grew up, somehow, through trial and error. It might have been dirty and unsafe (I'm referring to tree roots), but it was a obstacle to learn how to get past.

But the benches are same, the squat stone benches. Towards November, the fir-looking trees will shed their seeds. And the trees are starting again, I see cracks in the concrete.

Band, you've worked so hard for this moment. For many of you, it's your first time clutching your instrument and trooping up the stage to make music. Making music, for people to tell you how good your music is. Whatever result you get, you must respect the answer from the judges and learn from the experience.

The seniors will put them in your thought and we send you all our best wishes.

(01) Whats your horoscope?
Scorpio. So, the French Soccer coach must really not like me.

(02.) Where would you go if someone sponsor you a tour ticket?

Japan. And then maybe Thailand to visit Bee-jie, Manon and Christoff. Hey, it's only a short stopover!

(03.)What is/are your favourite things to do?

Sleeping, lazing on my bed. Eating ice cream on a hot, hot day. Sitting in a circle and talking with my friends. Many many things really, depends on the situation.

(04.)Do you think money can buy happiness?

If I get the TV mag with the Maou article and get myself a good jap language teacher, I'll be happy. But no, not in the long term.

(05.)If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

I have no idea at this point of time.

(06.)Do you encourage girls to admit their love to guys?

I look very unfavorably on secondary school relationships in general. Anything goes.

(07.)Do you encourage guys to admit their love to girl?

Depends. You can either move her, or make her very, very uncomfortable.

(08.)What's love?

I'll tell you next time.

(09.)What do you dream of doing in the future?

Working in either Johnny's or UN. Or the diplomatic service. Hey, a person can dream.

(10.)List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you.

Zarifah:

1)She's mighty disciplined. More than me, anyway.
2)She's good at drawing and has a very good artistic sense.
3)She perseveres no matter how tough the going gets.

(11.)What make you happy?

Sleeping in on rainy mornings. Watching videos of my favorite idols. Talking to friends. And listening to a very good piece of music.

(12.)What type of person do you hate most?

Someone who doesn't take the whole picture into account before scolding someone else.

(13.) Do you like any anime?

Naruto Shippuden (The first few episodes were awesome. It should still be awesome.) La Corda D'oro.

(14.)If you do not have a boyfriend/girlfriend, do you feel like having one now?

NOT AT ALL.

(15.)Who's the most important person in your life?

No one and everyone/

(16.)What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

My heart and my thoughts.

(17.)Do you have a crush on someone now? Who is it?

Ikuta Toma and Ohno Satoshi. They top my list.

(18.)The love of your life now?

My hard disk and my huge collection of...videos.

(19.)Are you courageous enough to tell a person that you like him/her?

Yes.

(20.)What do you want right now?

Ice Cream. A nice flavor.

(21.) I tag Shawn, Ruiqi and whoever that reads this blog. I'll be surprised if I have a readership higher than 4.

I need to, I have to, so I will and I should.

I will only come one to d/l Maou.

It's excruciating, but it's for my own good.

cousins are the best, they make you laugh and feel like living again.

Well, watching Return of the King and eating booze-filled chocolates, banana milkshakes with vanilla ice cream plus snarky comments on how XJ's so childish to play gunbound at this age helps.

Having tons of lames jokes also lightened the mood tons, other than trying to explain plot points and talking about awesome things to cousins.

Most of the time, I do wonder what kind of image I present to my cousins and relatives. A suck up? Someone who's too obedient? Too cool-y distant? Funny? Lazy? Rebellious?

should I run the nike marathon with melody? I really do need the exercise!

I take your life forever, you take my life forever.

I can shut people in and out of my life anytime I wish so. I'm tired to taking the first step, so people, please come and meet me halfway.

Talk to me, give me your name.